CHANGE

This semester has been hard. I haven't been doing well in school. It has been very strange for me because normally I am a fairly good student. School has usually come pretty easy for me. I study a bit and do all my assignment and get good grades. But this semester has not been so. I am a perfectionist. I hate doing bad in anything and I have to do my best if I don't, then I feel I have failed.

Last night I went to institute where Brad Wilcox spoke. I didn't know what he was going to be talking about but it was a huge blessing that I was able to go. Because as it turned out I felt like he was talking only to me. He spoke about changing weaknesses into strengths. He spoke about the scripture 2 Nephi 25:23. "It is by grace that we are saved, after all we can do." He taught us that its impossible to do ALL we can do. We will never be able to get there. I have been trying to get there. I put so much pressure on myself to be perfect. I of course never make it there and then Satan makes me feel like I am failing. Brother Wilcox also taught us that the "we" is not we as in you and I but "We" and in Christ and I. Emanuel - God With Us - Hand in hand he will lead us to Heaven.

I am going to change.
I am going to stop living my life in check marks.
I am going to ask myself why I do all the things I do.
I am going to do the things I do out of Love.
I am going to stop demanding so much of myself.
I am going to allow the Lord to make me into who He wants me to be.
I am going to humble myself and give my life to the Lord.
I am going to have Faith in his plan for Me.

This semester I have been trying to do it alone. I have been trying hard but I am getting no where by myself and I haven't been happy. I know that the only way to be happy is to involve the Lord in every aspect of our lives. Only the Atonement can change our hearts.
I am ready for change.

"Stop trying to impress the Lord with your sacrifices and instead allow
the Lord's sacrifice of his son to be more impressed upon you."
-Brad Wilcox